I WANT OUT FROM THIS HELL IM LIVING

i want to end it all, this is getting fucking rediculous...my party for sunday was canceled so i desided to still go out and have a good time no matter what because it's my birthday but my step-father thinks that there is some "concert" i keep mentioning....THERE IS NO FUCKING CONCERT! my parents are assholes and dumbasses...i want to leave but im in no finacial way able... i mean i have a job but that isn't good enough... ever since i dropped out of school they have been on my ass about a full-time job but it's fucking hard as hell to get a regular job...none the less a full-time job! and they want me to do this while taking away the car i have been using since june of last year... plus if you have been wondering if maybe they're right i am a slacker with the job thing... ok YOU TRY FINDING A FULL-TIME JOB WHEN YOU HAVE A 2 1/2 WEEK VACATION THAT YOU CAN'T GET OUT OF IN YOUR SCHEDUAL!!! it's not possible... i want to end this fucking hell maybe i'll slit my wrists but then again that never works, i'll probably just drink draino or take alot of the many expired perscription medications we have around the house....i've been back 2 weeks since the vacation and i just started getting hours at the job i had, but they are already on my ass about a new job... even worse they threatened to sell the car THIS WEEKEND!!! WHAT THE FUCK... this is rediculous and im in a sinerio where ending it all is the only choice....